becky

Hump day

2007-10-11T00:44:28Z

Wednesday is hump day because it's the middle of the week. haha. anyway, just had a lot going on with school. so much work to do everyday. And...also, I really can't believe just how inconsiderate some people can be. I mean I am so thankful that I have good friends in my life. They're always there for me and I can always count on them, just as I will always be there for them. Because of this, I really believe that friendships are fifty/fifty. There is always gonna be a give and take to every relationship, because you can't expect people to always give and all you do is take. I really respect those people who understand and appreciate this quality in a friend as much as I do. I honestly don't know how some people can go through life being so dependent on other people. Seriously though, we are all grown ups. We go to college for crying out loud, we all live on our own, we all provide for ourselves. Do everyone a favor and be an adult.

Well anyway, I just wanted to get that off my chest. I can't wait till friday so I get to go back to San Jose because I really miss it right now. Next week is rush week so I'm pretty excited. I just want this week to be over already. It kind of started off crappy and it's true that if your mondays aren't good, then the rest of your week won't be good either. So hopefully next monday is going to be a fresh start. I just wanna get out of this environment and spend some time with my family and sugarbear. I miss shopping. Seriously. I've been so good about this whole not shopping thing. But they kinda made me quit cold turkey. No fair. hahaha. I didn't even get to enjoy my last time at the mall. =[ I sound like a freak but I don't care. There are a few things on my wish list right now, and honestly, I am willing to admit that I don't need anymore stuff. If I do buy any more clothes or whatever, I'm really materialistic because I already have everything I need. It's just..nice to have some things. I really really want the daydreamer from juicy though and hopefully my brother will come through for me. =] I guess I'm just gonna have to prove that I deserve it. That will feel really good. If I don't get good grades this quarter, I won't ask for anything. So I guess you can say I'm pretty motivated to do well. hahaha. Which is a little sad seeing as how I should be motivated to do well regardless of rewards or not, but seriously, I want that daydreamer. and also, beat Tuyen. It's double or nothing this time. muahhaah. Alright, I'll update after the weekend. Byee!

It's good to be back

2007-10-07T18:08:49Z

Aww I love getting comments from my favorites!! heheh. I miss you guys! And I hope you have a great quarter too. I guess the next time I'll be seeing you will be....Christmas? =X Maybe? =[ . Well, anyway. On friday, I just went to class like normal. Havn't skipped a class yet. yayy. Then Tuyen came up from Berkeley so we were just hanging out at Vivi's. I ate and slept. ^ __^. Then I don't know, we ate some more. They all went out, but I went home to catch up on some reading. yeahh I know right? Then I had to wake up early the next morning to go to the TAPS bike auction. It was freezing cold, and hella tiring. I didn't eat anything until I got home later at 2ish. Then I knocked out. And I think I might be getting sick. But if I can help it, I won't be getting sick at all this year. Anyway, later I went to hang out with Quach and friends with Doro and Xtine. Quach fed us chicken noodle soup, and then we watched random movies, finally ending with Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. I hear there's gonna be a sequel...hahha. In Amsterdam? That should be interesting. So right now, I should be cleaning my room and doing my homework. Uhhh I have work later at 2:30 until 7:00. I really don't want to go but I need hours so I can get PAID. I can't wait till Tuesday. Tuesday means I get shopping money? =P ehh we'll see. Dinner with Vivi, Tuyen, Eddie and Carol after work. Then reading marathon! I can't wait. Byee.

beecckkyyy @ 2007-10-05T21:56:00

2007-10-06T05:14:46Z

It's been sooo long since I last wrote in here. But I have so much going on in my life right now that I think it'd be good for me to be able to vent somewhere. I don't want to trouble anyone with my lame problems. But if you're reading this, then that means you really care and that means I love love LOVE you!! So anyway, school started again. I'm taking 16 units. Every class has a million readings, one class with homework, two classes with papers, and I'm gonna have to stay on top of everything if I want to do well. (And I really really want to do well. Doing well means A's). Aside from that, work is still there. I just had to cut back on my hours because all I hear from everyone is that I won't do well in school if I work. And I guess I believe it, but wouldn't it be great if I could prove them wrong? Ehh. There's APhiO too, and since I'm BB/LB chair, I want to do my best and give them 100% and that means a lot of my time. I hope I can make it throug this quarter in one piece, and no mental breakdowns. Hmmm, what else. I've been spending a lot of time with my best girls, Vivian, Dorothy and Xtine. Havn't slept in my own bed for like a week. I miss having a roommate. My room gives me nightmares and sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I can't go back to sleep for hours. Other than that, I like my new place. I hardly stay at home anymore, I don't know why. I should just get used to my room. Can't stay at Viv's forever. I feel like I might overstay my welcome and impose on them. I NEVER want to be one of those people. I really don't understand how some people can do that though. I mean, they are totally oblivious to the fact that their presence affects EVERYONE in the house. You're not invisible you know. And what is the consequence of this? It rolls over to the people actually paying to live there. Total BS I swear. Whatever. I just wanna keep my focus on school, and doing whatever it is I need to do. I don't think I'll be able to go home much this quarter, which sucks because I miss my family, and my dog. I miss my big bed and having a tv in my room. I miss everyone back in San Jose. Kimmie, Stephie, Tony, Jeremy. Chicken!! =[ Sad sad sad. I'm so whiny. haha. I know. Usually when I'm depressed, i go shopping. But I can't even do that anymore. Oy. I'll be so glad when this quarter's over, and I've pulled off those A's, finished the term, and still have money. HAHHAA. Those are always my main concerns. On a happier note, my cousin is getting marries next saturday. I wanted to get a new dress, but I'm not allowed to shop anymore. I'm looking forward to going home, leaving all this behind for the weekend and enjoying quality family time. Thuy's birthday on the 19th, Xtine's birthday party on the 20th, and then her actual birthday on the 24th. After that, halloween. I'm very excited to dress up in my costume. hahha. LILO!! After that, I get to cut my hair. And that's basically it. I'm trying to take everything one day at a time. So that's what I'll do. Good night.

Summertime!

2007-06-17T11:08:53Z

Okayy I think I should start updating again because it's summer and there's many memories being built here. So let me start by saying that I'm so glad I survived my first year of college. From here on out, I will never be called a freshman ever again! Uhmm, all in all it was a good first year experience. A little part of me sorta regrets not living in the dorms just because that's what college is about, meeting new people and stuff. But in turn, I met so many great people by pledging for APO so I think that was a good tradeoff. Besides, living in the apartment has taught me a lot about myself, my tolerances and stuff like that. It also taught me a lot about people. How you can't always expect people to think the way you think, and if they see things differently, you just have to respect that and try to deal with it the best you can. I also learned that I have to put my best foot forward even when there are times where I just wanna give up everything and crawl into a corner. Sometimes, things just don't work out the way you planned and when you learn how to handle those situations with integrity and you don't hurt anyone in the process, it'll be okay and you can just move on. Anyway, enough with the life reflection. I drove straight home from Davis after my last sucky final. It was hella hot, like 110 degrees or something. When I arrived, Tuyen came to pick me up and we headed over to Inde for class of 07's graduation. It was pretty good, got to see the kiddies graduate, got reunited with a lot of people from 06 and got really tan. hahaha. After that, I just came home and relaxed. Thursday, didn't do much of anything. At night, I got dressed up to go to dinner with Dorothy to meet her boyfriend Kevin. He's really nice and funny and they're soo cute together. It was me, Viv, Tuyen, Xtine, Dorothy, Kevin, Sean, Gina, and Linda. It was also Sean's birthday. W had dinner at straits cafe at santana row. It was pretty good but they don't really know the meaning of family style, unless they have a really selfish family who doesn't share. hahah. the servings were really small. So after dinner, we couldn't figure out what to do so we just called it a night. On the way back to the car, I tripped on the curb and I was wearing heels so then I twisted my ankle. At first, I didn't think it was a big deal because that happened to me all the time, but this time it bent in a really weird way and for like a minute, I couldn't even walk. When I got home, it was hella swollen. The next day, it was even more swollen and I had to limp every time I walked. And my brother would be hella mean and make me walk hella far, or up and down the stairs. Then when I told mom about it, she was like oh it's not a big deal. dlakeiorusdfjdk. It was soo painful. But then I woke up this morning and it was a lot better. I still think it feels funny though because I can't walk up and down the stairs like I normally do. Anyway, after that dinner we went back to Viv's house cuz I wanted to play with Ashley and Viv's mom was looking at their baby pictures so we got hooked on it too. It was so funny to see Viv and Kimmie as kids. Friday, we woke up rather early because Fatty had to drive back to SLO so he can pack up his stuff, so I wanted to tag along. We got there, moved some stuff around, then went to eat the best freakin burger I've ever had in my life. It was hella good. Then we just drove back to San Jose. That took up like the whole day and we were all pretty tired so I just fell asleep. Today, I woke up and was just lagging around. Then I got ready to head over to Tiff's house for Dustin's graduation party. It was fun. I got there and Xtine, Steph and Kelly were drawing on the sidewalk with chalk. Cuties. =D Then we ate and just kinda chilled. Then Jeremy and I were bored so we decided to go to the park. Steph and Kelly came along and we played on the swings, got nauseous from the tire swing and that thing that you sit on and people can spin you around. After that, we chilled in Tiff's room and then ate some more. Then it turned into this big water balloon fight and all the kids and the boys got soaking wet. Then we played taboo for a while, got bored of that, played basketball. Well Kimmie and I only got to play for a little cuz the boys are mean and they don't pass us the ball. hahha. Only cuz we were wearing flip flops! >=0. After that, it got dark so we all just chilled in Tiff's room. Then everyone started leaving and eventually, it was just me, Tiff, Mickey, Brian, Khoa and Dustin. So we played clue for a long time. It was hella fun. But Mickey kept winning, and I was always so close. I was sad that I didn't get to win once. It was a lot of fun though. Then it was getting hella late so we just went home. Now I'm gonna go to sleep. Another fun day tomorrow perhaps? I hope I have a fun week ahead of me since I have to go back to sucky summer school soon. Boooo.

Update loooonnggg overdue.

2007-05-25T18:26:15Z

Hmmm. So I didn't update about pledge retreat like I promised. I kept putting it off. Now I'm kinda regretting not updating for this whole quarter because a lot of good stuff happened, especially with APhiO. But I guess all I can really say is that it was one of the best experiences of my life. I always knew that helping people by doing service was a good thing, but this made me realize that it is so rewarding and it makes you such a better person for it. The best thing about APO would be hands down, the people. I havn't met a single person that I didn't automatically click with. All interesting and funny people. =P The experiences are amazing and I will never forget it. Best three months ever!! I'm sad that it's over now, pledging anyway. But I'm finally active, which is what I was looking forward to the most. Can't wait till F2K7. Uhhh anyway, the end of the year is approaching and I'm sooo looking forward to that. I get to see mookie and take a break. Which will be short lived because I'm gonna be in Davis for two summer sessions. No time for fun. =( But for now, I really really need to get it together and focus on finishing this quarter on good terms. I feel really bad when I'm not trying as hard as I could be because I can just see my mom being so disappointed. Anyway, three day weekend. Should be fun?

Update. Spring break and stuff.

2007-03-29T00:21:38Z

So I havn't updated for a while because of finals and all. But uhhmm, needless to say I studied my butt off (for the most part) and it paid off. After my last final, I drove straight home cuz I couldn't wait to get outta here. I got home wednesday night and no one was home. =( I just ate a little bit and then ran over to Van's house to see her before she went back to school cuz who knows when I'll get to see her again. Then I don't really remember what I did. I finished up Viv's birthday present. The next day, was Vivi's birthday. I had lunch with Steph nhi at Fresh choice. It was fun. I hella missed that girl. and I hella missed fresh choice. After that, I had to drop my car off at the place to get my smog check. So Viv came with me and we went to the boy's tennis game. I went to mom's second birthday dinner after that. She's such a cheater. hahha. she gets to have TWO birthdays! On friday, I woke up early to visit leadership and Inde. I was sad cuz I wanted to see Ms. Dinh. But I got to see the kids again. Too bad they had school. But I got to eat breakfast with Tiffany! Yayy! Then I came back and just hung out with Angelica and Josephine. I also visited Mr. Elwell. After school, I hung out with Steven for a little bit. Then he dropped me off at Pizza Cali and I got to see Tracy and Bernardo. They tried to hide from me. haha. We just sat there for like hours talking and stuff. Nardo's moving to New York. =( I'm gonna miss him sooo much. But now I'll have an excuse to visit. After that, Nardo dropped me off at Calvin's house and we were supposed to get ready to go to a movie. But then I fell asleep. So we ended up just hanging out. And then we wanted sushi. So me, Calvin, Mav, Kimmie, Viv, Tuyen and Tony went to eat sushi. Then back to Viv's to watch friends. Saturday, I didn't do much of anything. Or I don't even remember. 0_0 Oh yeahhh I remember now. hahah okiee. I went to play tennis with Vu. It was pretty fun. I'm not that bad for a beginner. =P haha. I like tennis! Anyway, after that I went home to shower and then headed over to Jeremy's to chill. We were gonna go watch a movie but then I think we were all pretty lazy. So then me, Jerms, Mav and Calvin went to In n Out. and that was that. On sunday, we were supposed to go to the beach but then it didn't follow through. So then I didn't really do much. Just went to Huy's bbq. That was fun. We played karaoke revolution. hehe. I hella wanna make my brother buy that game now. Then it was getting late. Monday morning, woke up and hung out with my <5 girlies. (and Mickey). We didn't do much. Just talked like we always do. Then I went to Valleyfair with Viv and Kimmie. We ate appetizers at Cheesecake. It was my first time there. I lovee that place! It was supposedly girl's day but Steph and Shannon were busy. So it was me, Viv, Kimmie, Jenn, and Christine. (and Tony) haha. he forgot his wig though. After lunch we shopped for a bit. For some reason, I wasn't in the shopping mood though. I guess food coma? But I had no energy to actively shop. I got some cute stuff though. But I am no where near satisfied. And my shirt to pants ratio is now like 25 to 1!! >=0. Noooo!! Oh well. It's the summer time. That means new wardrobe. >=) . I wanna shop some moree!! After that, I was hella tired so I went home to have dinner with the family. Tuesday, I went to Ihop with Tracy and Calandra. I missed them soo. We were missing Jaq though. =( We hella missed you JAQ! We now reference you, instead of Mrs. Abel. hahhaa. Then I came home and had to pack, get all my stuff ready so I could head back to Davis later. I went to Costco with Fatty first though, to get water and such. We ended up buying four seasons of friends because it was so cheap. I wanted to buy em all but they didn't have it all. Now I'm only missing seasons 6, 9, and 10. When I finish collecting that, I wanna get the Gilmore Girls set. Anyway, after Costco, Dorothy came and I went to get Xtine and we drove back to Davis. Traffic was stupidly jammed so it took us like two hours to get back. Then we went to Walmart so I could get school supplies. I lovee college because I get to have three first days of school every year! I always liked the first day of school. I also got this drawer thing so that I could come home and reorganize my desk. Later, I watched Pirates of the Carribbean with Thuy and Kevin. At first, it was like whenever Johnny Depp acted feminine like, we would take a shot. But that got boring. So we changed it to everytime they said SHIP, we would all have to say ship and the last person to say it would have to take a shot. Turns out, they say ship a lot in that movie. and I had to call it quits. But it was really fun. Then we had to go to sleep cuz we all had class early in the morning. I went to psychology and geology today. My schedule sucks to the max! I have stupid gaps in between. Like not long enough for me to go home. So I'm just at school today doing nothing. And then, I was stupid and went to discussion for my geology class today when she told us we didn't have to go. hahaha. See this is why you pay attention. Anyway, I'm gonna head out to my human sexuality class in a bit. Just thought I should update since I hadn't done it in a while. Mann this is long. Okayy, next time I'll update about my pledge retreat! That should be interesting ehh? Okayyy byee!!

Fun weekend =P

2007-03-12T08:03:07Z

I can't remember what I did on thursday. I think I went to a lot of committee meetings. Then I came home and went to service, then I went to the 24 hour room with Kim and Dai. Friday morning I couldn't wake up for stats and I felt likee crap. Dragged myself to classes and then I came home and took a nap. Then I woke up to go to scavenger hunt because I didn't wanna miss it. Which I'm glad I didn't because it was the best experience ever! Team 8! =) We did some crazy stuff I swear. Got to bond with my team. See where everyone lived. hahaha. Borrowed a lifesaver! I fit inside a dryer. And all ten of us fit inside a phone booth! It was crazyy. I'm really hoping we win because that would just be awesome. But still cool if we didn't because it was an unforgettable experience. Afterwards we went to Denny's and I had pancakes! Then Thuy and I crashed until the next morning. We woke up and went to PLW. Ate lots of grapes and got to know more people. Then we had frisbee afterwards. It was fun but then my allergies kicked in. And I realized I don't suck at sports as much anymore. hahaha. I actually caught the frisbee! yeee. Then we all got tired cuz apparently none of us exercise so we called it quits. Then Thuy and I ate cookies and went home. I took a nap again because I was super tired and I needed to build energy for later that night. Then the kiddies came and tried to wake me up. But they're not neenja enough and I caught them. Then we were just hanging out and I got ready and cleaned up for everyone to come. Then people started coming one by one. It got pretty crowded at one point. I actually thought that many people wouldn't come. But yeah, it was funn! lots of FUN! Thanks Thuy, Kim and Tina. you guys are the best! I loveee you. Vivi I hope you had fun. and Kiddies too. Yayyy for all you can eat sushi. hahha. So obviously we went to eat Fuji's. The wait wasn't that bad today. Also the weather was hella nice. I dressed summery! Beach during spring break. yayy! I didn't eat that much though because I've been sick and I havn't been eating much lately. anyway, after sushi we came home and the boys played xbox. The rest of us watched just like heaven. hella cute movie. Then the kiddies went home. =( Then I studied for Quiz 2 and got ready to go to pledge meeting. We went to excomm too. Elections were all good. New plexcomm yayy! Veryyy long meeting and I'm glad to be home cuz now I can go to sleep. More fun to come later. and oh yeah...finals. Must beat Tuyen. Okayy that is all.

Updatee!

2007-03-09T00:39:29Z

Hmmm let's see. I went to my pledge meeting on sunday. We went to IHOP afterwards. Then I came home and went to bed because I felt like blahhh. Monday was boring. I went to meet and greet on monday and met more cool people. =P Tuesday I skipped english, went to stats discussion and then came home. Made canh chua and went to have dinner at Chi chi's. But she was really sick so she couldn't eat anything. Then I came home and opted to study and do my homework. Yesterday I went to all my classes. YaYyy!! Even though I was feeling really sluggish. Took a math quiz. Then I came home and was chilling at home. Quang comes to visit! We all went to eat at TGIF and then we came home and Kim and I went to the library! yayy. We came home at like three though. Today I went to english to write an in class essay. Then went to committees and I'm gonna go work out soon. If I'm feeling up to it. I'm not totally well yet so I don't know. I havn't been working out for a whole week. I can feel my muscles atrophy. Fatttyyy!! muscle turns into fat! ohh noooo. Later I'm gonna go to my first service. Making crafts! Funn!! hehe. I just had coffee so I'm a little weeeeee right now. Okieee. Library round two today. Byeee!

Best birthday ever!

2007-03-05T09:30:53Z

On thursday, I went to my post rush interview with daddy Joe. Then I went to English class which felt extra super long because I wasn't feeling well and I just wanted to get outta there. I came home and took a nap. Then I woke up to go work out and before I knew it, it was time to go to Viet's house. Viet is my super cool brother from another mother who threw me a birthday party. It was soo much fun. Everyone came and we were all hanging out, eating,drinking. I got sooo many lap dances. =) It was great. I got an ice cream cake too! Thank you Viet, Kim, Hoa, and Thuy! I lovveeee you guys! We stayed until like three, and when I got home, I washed the dishes because I wasn't sleepy. Then I knocked out at five, had to wake up at nine because I was gonna go work out but I wasn't feeling good, not much sleep and I think I mightve been hung over? =X I guess that's what that feels like. So then I just packed and did random stuff. Then it was time to go to class. I ditched math so we can get home in time for the fashion show. I took Viv, Dorothy and Xtine. Then I went to Viv's house cuz her mama made pho and then we got ready for the fashion show. It was pretty good. But then they ran out of time, so then they cut out Kimmie's favorite part. Poor kiddies. They were so pissed. But they should be proud of what they did, because it's hard to pull something like that off. I got to see all the kids again. They're all grown up. sniffles. Anyway, afterwards we went to Kim Tar to eat for a little bit and then we went home. Saturday morning, I woke up kinda late and I didn't do much. Then I got ready and went to An's house for dam gio for her dad. It was good hanging out with her, catching up and seeing everyone again. It was weird though because everyone looked so much older and different. Then I went to Jeremy's house cuz Mav was there and we all went to visit Tony at work and he made me a special birthday drink and he gave me a cupcake. After that, we went to my house so I can get my stuff and then we were just hanging out at Jerm's until dinner time. Then Steven came, and I went to get Calvin and we met up at Red Lobster. Then they told us it would be an hour to an hour and a half and so then we went to Chili's. It was a good dinner. I got a birthday shake. =) Let's see, who was at dinner...Steven, Mav, Jerms, Steph Vo, Steph Bui, Calvin, Steph Nhi, Tony, Tuyen, Viv, Dorothy, Xtine, Vu, Tiff, Victor, Carol and Kimmie. Thanks for coming guys! and thank you for the presents! =) I loveee them. Afterwards, we all went to hang out at Victor's, drank and stuff. It was soo much fun. Apparently I was being super stupid because I was believing everything Mickey was telling me. Hella funny stuff. And I also got to see people I hadn't seen in a while. Little Casey came! Which I loveedd because I love her so much. I really missed her. Then it was getting late and everyone was leaving and I was getting really really tired. I fell asleep for a while. So I took Casey home and then I went to sleep. Woke up this morning and went to Costco and supermarket with mama. Then I got ready to go back to Davis. When I got back, I had to study for our first pledge quiz. Then I went to our pledge meeting with Thuy. It was super long. They sang happy birthday to me though. =) that was nice. And I'm running for spokesperson. yayy! After, we went to Applebee's but they were closing so we all hopped over to Ihop. Now I'm super tired and hella sick. But I made a promise to myself that I would go to every class everyday from now until finals. So yeahh, gotta work out more. and get better! I can't do shit when I'm sick. I feel so useless. But yeahhh best birthday ever! Thank you everyone. I loveeee you all! More than you can even imagine.

Update yayy!!

2007-03-01T08:54:25Z

So monday was a hella fuckin long day. I woke up at 7 to get ready to go to stats, but for some reason, I didn't make it in time so I was likee ehh. So I just went to the lounge to study. Studied until noon, then went to classes. When I got home, I went to fellowship at guad's where they made me eat in the eating contest! >=0! Me and Thuy had split one, and we totally didn't win. I ate half of a half of a burrito. But I had lots of fun. A Phi O people are fun. Then we went home and I was like that's it, gotta go to the arc. So then I did. Then I came home and did some homework. Tuesday, went to class and then came home and made che. Then I was gonna do homework but then I ended up taking a long ass nap. I was dead tired. Then I woke up just in time for dinner. I went over to Anny's just as everyone was sitting down. It was very yummy and hilarious. I love having dinner with them. It's so cute, they have it every tuesday likee family. And then they play board games afterwards. =). I couldn't stay for board games because I had to go study. Then Giang tried to draw a map to show me where to go, but he failed miserably. Hella made everything more complicated. When I got there, Kim David and Viet were already there. Then we were all studying and stuff. Viet said the cutest thing..."now that David's back, let's all hang out like we used to. =) hella cutee. but yeahh I missed hanging out with them. and hang out we shall. Anyway, we left the library at like two and my car was frozen! I had to scrape ice off the windshield. When I got home, I went to sleep because I knew it was gonna be another long day. I was gonna go to stats and then study at the lounge afterwards but then I ended up waking up late so then I was like why go study at the lounge when I can be warm at home? So then I was studying, but then I just couldn't concentrate because I was soo tired. My midterm totally raped me by the way. Hella disappointing. It killed my day. I'm gonna bust my ass for finals. seriously. Can't lose to Tuyen. Nooo!!! So then to cheer me up, I decided to go to fellowship since the house dinner was cancelled. It was iron chef night, and I got to meet so many more people. This is great. Then I came home and got ready to go to the arc and I managed to drag Thuy along with me. Picked up Dorothy, Xtine and Viv and we all went to work out. It was a fun workout too cuz me Doro and Xtine were all talking about random things. Now I'm home and I'm super duper tired. Gonna sleep well tonight. Yayyy.

Sunday yayy!!

2007-02-26T08:38:18Z

So I woke up early this morning to go swimming with Dorothy again. Except, I didn't get to swim because I have this irrational fear of really deep pools, and they didn't open up the five foot pool...so I was sad that I didn't get to swim. And then it started raining...So the Dorothy and I went back home and ate cereal. Then Anny came with us so I can get my piercings. We went to Urban and I got my cartilage and my tragus pierced. It's sooo cool and I'm really excited about it. The cartilage wasn't bad at all, it was just a small pinch and it was over quickly. But then the tragus hurt because with the first pinch, I was like oh is that all? but that wasn't it...then came this big pinch after that, which I totally did not anticipate and that one really hurt. Dorothy told me it was bleeding a lot and she got scared. But I'm a trooper. After that, we went to eat pho and then we went back to Anny's house and we watched stick it. Such a good movie! It's so cutee and funny. I recommend it. Then Dorothy and I went to work out at the arc. We didn't get to stay for that long because I had to run off to my pledge meeting, and it was the first pledge meeting so I didn't wanna be late. But yeahh, pledging is sooo fun and I got to meet so many new people. This is gonna be great. Except, I'm realizing that this is gonna take up a lot of my time, so maybe I shouldn't sign up for that fifth class because I think I'm about to bite off more than I can chew and I would rather not risk lowering my GPA. So I guess my schedule is pretty much set for next quarter. Hoorayyy for 8 am math classes. =/ But the good news is now my fridays are wide open. So yeahh, the meeting ran pretty long because they were giving us a lot of information. It was really overwhelming. After that, we went to Ihop to hang out and eat and get to know more people. Everyone is so friendly, I love it. So likeee at Ihop, Ashley and I had really good pancakes and we were really happy. Then after we finished eating, we were sad because we had eaten more that we wanted to and we were really full. But pancakes = yayyy!!! Now I'm home and I'm really tired but I have some stuff that I need to get done because tomorrow is another long day. Sigh. This is gonna leave no time for tv. Okayyy later.

beecckkyyy @ 2007-02-24T21:38:00

2007-02-25T05:52:27Z

So likee I've been doing homework and studying all week. My math midterm was kinda blahh cuz I think I did okay...kinda got stuck on this one part. I hate math. Actually math hates me. Every time we learn something new, it's like math is tormenting and pointing at me and laughing saying "hahaha Becky won't get this part either". haseiuodsifhjbnlkfntreiodd. Anyway, that was a little discouraging so then I opted to study even more for stats and npb so that I could feel better about my academic performance. I totally choked on my stats midterm. So that's two for two. Damn it. I'm gonna study my ass off for finals. I don't even care if it's boring or whatever, I'm gonna suck it up. Studying isn't actually that bad. Once I get into the swing of things, cuz if I'm distracted then forget it. So yeahh. npb was not bad at all. but I don't wanna get my hopes up only to be utterly disappointed, so let's just wait for the results okayy? After that, was just math class. Now we're learning something new, and it's pretty easy but just you wait, by next week I'm gonna be hitting my head against the wall because I don't get it. aweoisdfjiskdfsdfjd to the maaxxx! Anyway, after class I was waiting around for A Phi O. Oh yeahh Alpha Phi Omega is a Co-ed Community service fraternity. Leadership, friendship, service. You can think of it as Interact meets leadership. I am officially pledging. I got inititated on friday and I'm so excited about this. It feels good to be part of something again because I was really missing leadership. After initiation, we went to fellowship at In n out. Met hella new people. I used to be soo good with names but there were so many people, this could take a while. And my sponsor is super cool and we have to wear this pledge pin for all of our pledging term. I just hope I don't forget. Then we went home cuz I had had such a long day. But Tom, Tommy and Nicc and stuff all came up from San Jose so I went to hang out at Viet's a little bit with Kim and Dai. Then we went to Long's cuz they were playing poker. Then I went home because I was sooo tired, I couldn't even keep my eyes open. This morning, I woke up early to go swimming with Dorothy. A good two hours. Dammnn. Good work out though. We're gonna go again tomorrow. Afterwards, I went home and ate because swimming really takes a lot outta ya and I had to put something back. Then I was gonna do homework and stuff but I was so beat, I just laid down on my bed and died. Until five, when I woke up to go to the arc with Dorothy. Another two hours. =) and that seriously was my wholee day. Where does the time go? I came home to shower, eat a little bit and now I'm gonna do homework and study. Yayy!! That's it, I've got more to say tomorrow for suree. Byee!

Happy New Year's!

2007-02-20T06:26:38Z

The week was just really boring. School and that's all. On friday, I went to class as usual, then picked up Paul and Aaron at Rite aid, then Viv and Xtine and we headed home. When I got back, I had dinner with the family and that's it. I know....boring right? Saturday morning, I had to wake up and help mom do all this crap for New Year's because she's crazzyyy superstitious. We spent the whole morning doing that. Then we had to wait for incense to burn out and then we could eat. There was soo much food. Mom cooked up a storm, we won't be hungry for weeks! Anyway, after eating I went to get the oil changed for my baby. My brother was supposed to get a smog check too but then we drove around to like five different ones and they were all either closed or in the process of closing. So that was a total waste of time. Then I came home and chilled for a little. Watched the negotiator. well not the whole thing cuz then I had to go pick up my baby at the shop. Then I met up with Maverick and we couldn't think of anything to do so then we went to the mall. Lamee right? I know, it was the best thing we could come up with. So we were walking around shopping, and I ended up not buying anything which made me sad because I totally wanted to come home with something new. Afterwards, Tony met us at Finish Line and we visited Mickey for a little bit. Then I went to Viv's while Tony went home to shower. We were waiting for Tony and Tuyen came. Then we got Jeremy and went to mission lanes for bowling. It was funn. Tony and Kimmie had a competition going and then I gave Mav sooo many chances to redeem his freedom that night. First, if he got a turkey, then he could be master again. But he didn't follow through. After that, we dropped Jeremy off cuz kiddo had to be home by 11, and we were craving asian food but seeing as how it was new years there were no asian places open. So we ended up at Ihop. It was so fun. We ate a lot and laughed a lot. All you can eat pancakes. =) Pansy Mav only ate four! Then we went back to Viv's and watched friends. I'm Phoebe, Viv's Monica, Kimmie's Rachel, Tuyen is Ross, Tony's Chandler and Mav is Joey. Hella funny. Then it was getting late so we all went home. Sunday morning, fatty woke me up but I didn't wanna get outta bed. Then mom came in and dangled a red envelope in front of my face and I jumped right outta bed. <33 mommy. and bac too. They were gone the whole day so I went with Fatty to visit relatives. When I got back, I got ready and went over to Viv's but she wasn't home so Steph and I bonded with her mom. and hung out with little Ashley. She's so cute, I love her. When they got back, we went to Asian Pacific buffet. It was in fremont...=/ hella far but hella good! Sooo much food. That was all I had eaten all day but still enough. When we got back I totally had food coma and I fell asleep. Then we were all just hanging out and watched One Tree Hill and stuff. Then I went home to hang out with momma. I was bored for the rest of the night but then I figured I should stay home since it was Sunday. This morning, I woke up and got ready to go to temple. When we got there, there was nobody there and we knew that if we waited for the thing to start then it would be forever. So we had lunch there and then went home. I got home and packed up all my stuff. Then I went to the boy's tennis practice, which was ending already. I listened to Mickey "talk to the guys" hahah soo funny. and then went to eat with Tony, Mav, and Calvin. In-n-out yummm. Then I had some time to kill so we went to eastridge. well Mav wanted to buy something too. The first store I saw....Bakers. and the rest is history. I walked out with a pair of flats. Hella cuteee too. I love them. Then it was like four so I had to leave, but the boys kept shopping. They totally made my day. I loveee them. I went to pick up Xtine, Paul and Aaron and we headed back to Davis. Best trip ever! Paul and Xtine started singing random songs like Disney and Grease. and when we got to the toll booth, there was hella traffic so they decided to make faces at the cars next to us. I almost died laughing I swear. But the traffic set us back like half an hour. That was annoying. When I got back, I wanted to go work out, but Dorothy was hungry so we didn't go till like 730. When we got there, we found out they close at 9 and all the machines were taken. So it was sooo unproductive for me. I was planning on coming back and working out here but it was closed too! lsdkjfoaiserjadhfd. So I'm gonna have to work extra hard tomorrow, and maybe for the rest of the week to make up for all the crap I've been eating. Okay study timee now. Byeee.

beecckkyyy @ 2007-02-12T00:42:00

2007-02-12T09:01:58Z

So I was right. I got my hopes up too high only to get disappointed yet again. When I got to the fairgrounds on Saturday morning, everyone was like late getting there. So apparently, our booth was given away. wtF riight. So we didn't really have anything to do. I was there for a couple of hours, hanging out with Kim. We had a good talk. Then it was almost three and Tuyen picked me up to go to little Ashley's birthday party. Oh man, so many kids. So much noise. But I gotta say, it's the best little kid birthday party I've ever been to. They had Nani the hula princess. She's also Lilo's sister by the way and she was making everyone stuff out of balloons. Then we were eating. There was sooo much food. Sushi yummm. Then they had Sleeping Beauty come and entertain the kids. Us big kids were just hanging out. It was me, Viv, Tuyen, Kimmie, Carol, Stephie, Tony, and Eddie. We did random stuff and sang karaoke. Then everyone started leaving. I was heading off to Sandy's. A few were already there when I came. We all just hung out, did the usual stuff. Then Sandy brought out the alcohol. Oh no. An came and we all celebrated her birthday early with her. I had lots of fun. I've got my tolerance back! Yayy!! Just in time for my birthday coming up too. Then we were singing karaoke and stuff. An was having the time of her life. Anyway, we didn't all leave until close to four thirty because the guys had to finish a very intense poker game. It was a good day. Feels good to be back with the Sunday Crew. When I got home, I had to be hella careful not to wake Mommy or else I would have to hear a very long lecture. But I'm a neenja and I didn't get yelled at or anything. This morning, she woke me up and she asked me what time I got in and I was likee uhhhh....TWO! =P. Anyway, I got up and got ready to go to temple for Daddy. We were there for a while because the ceremony was kinda long, and then there's a long talk and basically we were waiting for a long time. I had a good chat with Mom and Bac though. Very interesting. Then we had lunch there. Vegetarian food. yummm. Afterwards, we dropped by my temple because it was our 25th anniversary. That was fun too. A little speech here and there. Then a little food. I don't know what it is but I always have such a good time around temple. I loveee them so. We coined the phrase, "Cheek cramps". Because we always laugh so much. So that was my whole day. When I got back, I had to pack all my stuff up real quick and head over to Viv's so we can drive back to Davis already. Kim, Dai, Tinh and Mike caravanned with us back. We stopped by the gas station to get some snacks, and gas for Kim of course. First road trip with snacks! Yayy!! When we got back, I only had time to unpack stuff and then Dorothy and I hit the gym. We were there for a while. Which was good. Three weeks baby and hopefully I'll be back. Okayy now I'm freakin tired because I didn't get much sleep. Byeeee.

Boring week.

2007-02-10T05:57:08Z

Soo it was pretty much an uneventful week. Just went to class as normal. On wednesday, I took a quiz in math and I thought I did pretty well. But then turns out I didn't. wtFF I hate math I swear. I've been really focused on school. Takes my mind off other things. Which is good cuz I should be focused on school anyway. I need to stay on top of it. 4.0 or bust man. Anyway, on thursday after english class Kim and Thuy went with me to cut my hair. Well I only cut my bangs. Straight across. yeahhh I look like a little girl. It's different and I was looking for a change. Anyway, it's just hair. It'll grow back. After my haircut, I dropped Thuy off at school. Then Kim and I came home and we were like what should we do. So we had a lazy day and just watched friends cuz that always makes you feel better. I love it. Then I painted Kim's nails cuz she wanted me to. It was funny cuz we were watching the episode where Ross and Joey took a nap together and then we both took a nap. Not together though, hahah. Then I woke up and did random stuff like pack, do laundry, and I was chatting. Then at around nine thirty we all started getting ready to go to a house dinner. It was good cuz we hadn't went out all together since Thuy's birthday. We went to Bj's. But since it was so late, they were only doing appetizers and pizza. So we got a few appetizers and a pizza. It was more of a late night snack than a dinner but it was still fun. We got back at like twelve thirty and I was so tired, I just went to sleep. Today was sorta a bad day because it was raining and all. I was late to like all my classes. So I was always out of breath and hot everytime I went to class. Not to mention wet and icky from the rain. Ughh freakin hate it when it rains. On top of that, I feel like I'm behind in my classes now, and I didn't do well on my NPB quiz. Talk about a depressing day. After school was done, I wanted to get outta here. It took me like twenty minutes to get gas though because it seems like everybody and their moms were getting gas at the same time. And of course the rain made it so much harder. Anyway, I went to pick up Vivian and Dorothy and we had a long drive home because I was being careful since the rain and all. I dropped them off and came home. Then went to eat pho with Mama and Bac. Yumm. I missed them. Home is so comforting. So that's it for now. Looking forward to tomorrow. Well maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up too high because it's raining and all so I don't know how that affects my plans. We'll just see how it goes. Okayy byee.

Fun weekend!

2007-02-05T07:03:21Z

Sadies was soo much fun! I got ready really really quickly. Then headed over to Viv's and then Mav came. Then we went to school and waited in line in the freakin cold to get in. Once in, we waited even more just to take pictures and then waited more for Kimmie and Steph to take pictures. Dancing is fun. Releases tension you know? I fuckin love Calvin! He's so funny. I had an awesome date too. Anyway, after that we drove around cuz we couldn't decide where to go or the place was closed. So we ended up at Barcode and then to Viv's. I fell asleep for a bit and then went home. The next day Fatty woke me up, complaining about how he wants sandwiches. But I was so tired so I just laid in bed. I eventually got outta bed and went to eat with him. Then he dragged me with him to get his haircut. Ten minutes my butt. When I got home, I rested for a bit then I got ready to go play football with the boys at townsend. But when I got there, they didn't wanna play so then I ended up just talking to Anny and Tiffany. Which was a pleasant surprise cuz I didn't expect for them to be there. I missed them soo. Then Tracy and Nardo stopped by which really brightened my day because I havn't seen them for a while, especially Nardo! After a while, everyone was leaving so we were hanging out at Viv's until they had to leave for grandma's. I came home and fell asleep on the couch. Then I woke up and we decided to go to the movies. Calvin was supposed to come too, but when I came to pick him up he couldn't go out anymore. So I just went to yellowstone where Jeremy, Mav and Tony were playing tennis. We were there until Viv called and told us they got home so now we could come over. We went to Hollywood to pick a movie. Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The beginning. But first, we were just messing around and playing with the dice. If we rolled a ___, then whatever will happen. And I was like if I roll a two, Mav and I would switch places, he'll be slave and I am master. And I did roll a two, but then he contested just because the dice rolled off the table and onto the floor. So I was likee fine! If I roll a six this time, and what do you know?! I rolled a six! hahaha. What are the odds? I was just as shocked as he was. I'm just lucky I guess. Well, only sometimes. But yeahh, it was funny. Then we started watching the movie. Freaky as hell, I swear. I'm never eating meat again! Gross...it's so unbelievable. I'm so shocked that it's a true story. Needless to say, it hella freaked me out and I was so scared to drive home by myself. When I got home, I was scared so then I grabbed my blanket and pillows and ran upstairs to my brother's room. We stayed up late watching friends and then I eventually fell asleep. Mommy woke me up sunday morning. =). I wanted to sleep still but then I knew there were a lot of things I needed to get done. So I got up, took a quick shower, packed up all my clothes and stuff, and we were gonna go to costco but we had to wait for fatty to leave. So meanwhile, I was eating and he fixed my headlight. Then he headed out, so we did too. We were at Costco and mom let me buy whatever I wanted because she said she misses me. hahaha. funnyy. But when we went to check out, mom wandered off somewhere and she had the card and money. So when I went to look for her, the guy just took all our stuff off the counter and he was like yeah you can't just leave your stuff like that. wtF right? Anyway, as we were leaving, I ran into Sheena. What a pleasant surprise. I lovee that girl. Then we went to Ocean supermarket for groceries. More food to get fat. Hahaha. This is why I'm fat. When we went to check out, I ran into Dorothy! Another pleasant surprise. We were talking for a bit, and then I started talking to her mom. I love Dorothy she's so cute. I met her when I was her link crew leader and she's always been my favorite kid. Anyway, when I got home I loaded everything into my baby. Then ate lunch with Mom and Bac and then I went to pick up Xtine. Then Viv. Her mom saw all the stuff we were bringing back and she's like mann, only three girls are the trunk is already full. And I was like it's only cuz we have mommies that love us. I love my mommy too. She's the greatest. Now, I've been back for 5-6 hours? and I have accomplished absolutely nothing worth accomplishing. And I'm super tired so most likely, I'm just gonna fall asleep soon. Lamee right? What a lazy bum I am. I still needa make a trip to the bank though. I know right?! Okayy, later.

Quick update

2007-02-02T07:53:12Z

So wednesday I just went to classes like normal. Turned in my homework and stuff. I hella procrastinated with my math homework. Which I need a lot of help with. Anyway, I came home and worked out and stuff. Then I was getting ready to study for math and what not. There wasn't a quiz or anything, I just felt like I needed to brush up on it so I knew what I was doing cuz lemme tell you something, I have no idea what I'm doing in math. I absolutely hate calculus with a passion. I'm serious. But then Kim had some stuff going on so she came home and we were talking. Then she wanted to go to walmart and I thought it'd be a good idea, so I can look for stuff to make Mav's shirt. So Kim and I went with Thuy. Then we came home and Kim was like snacking and I didn't have any homework or anything so we made a night out of it. We watched A walk to remember so we can get a good cry out of it. She was eating and I was working on my project, which was Mav's shirt. But then I had to wash it first so that took like two hours. By that time, we already finished the movie so we decided to watch Ever After. It was so funny because Kim and I were being so cynical and bitter, picking at every little detail in each movie. Seriously though, we had a good time. Then it was like four in the morning and I just had to crash. I woke up at 11 today, just in time to get ready and go to English. Then I came home to work out and then picked up Viv and Dorothy to go to Ardenfair mall. We spent hours there, but at least we got what we came there to do and then some, well for me anyway. I'm really excited about this weekend. I hope everything goes well. I really miss home. Okayy Later.

Aww man

2007-01-31T03:51:41Z

So I was gonna go back to san jose today so I can catch the winter games assembly at Independence. But then I started having second thoughts about it because what if I missed something important in English and Stats and that affects my grade somehow later on....I know I'm hella gonna regret it. So then, I decided not to go. But then I was thinking about it the whole day....I could be in san jose right now. But whatever, I just went to class like normal. Turns out to be a big mistake because we didn't even do shit in class. We learned how to use the library. -__-. Lameee! and in stats discussion, I was hella bored because I had already finished my homework and I understood everything already. To top it all off, I had an hour to kill in between each class so I just kinda sat around doing nothing. AND I heard the assembly was hella good too! Oh well, I really wanna see the Battle of the Classes assembly though. See little Tiffany hard at work too. Anyway, at five, I went to a viewing of An Inconvenient Truth. The movie with Al Gore and he talks about Global Warming. Man that really opened up my eyes. Everyone should definitely watch it. It's mind blowing really. I had no ideaa we were in that much trouble. At the end, it asked "Are you ready to change the way you live?" And I am definitely ready. I just hope it makes a difference. But it should if everyone was aware and was willing to contribute. We should definitely change the way we live now....before there is nothing left to live for. Lovee the earth! Stop destroying it...

Just a regular day

2007-01-30T03:27:39Z

I actually went to stats today. Freakin 8 oclock class. I was a little late, but ehhh no harm done. I didn't even need to come cuz it was so pointless. Gawwdd. But then I really feel like I'm being a bad student if I don't. So after class, I went to the silo to get a little something to eat. Then I spent the next three hours studying for my exercise biology midterm. which really paid off because I think I did pretty well. So I was having a good day. Then I got my math midterm back. Fuucckkkk. hahahaa. I didn't even get half right. I got 49 outta 100. But then it was really hard and I knew I didn't do well. After math, I went to eat dc with Stephanie and Viv. It was really fun. She's so funny. So yeah, that's it. I'm gonna go work out just as soon as I digest my food. Then I'm gonna come back and do homework. I can sorta relax a little now that midterms are over. But I can't get off track because the next set of midterms are gonna be here before I know it. Okayy byeee.

La la la la la

2007-01-29T02:43:57Z

Sooo...friday was just a long day of school. Two midterms done and I could sorta relax finally. I came home and I was in such a mood to workout. So then I did. After that I just did whatever, took a shower. Then proceeded to do my homework, but I didn't get very far because I had a few distractions. Plus, I was freakin tired since I woke up at like 6 that morning. So then I ended up sleepipng at like one. Also, I was home by myself...kinda scary. I woke up at ten or eleven on saturday I think. I went to work out for a couple hours. Then came back to shower and try to get as much homework and studying done. But then again, I was sorta distracted. Then before I knew it, it was almost five and I had to start getting ready so we could head back to San jose for Sandy's birthday thing. Then Kim came rushing home cuz she thought she was late but then when she saw me getting ready she was like okayy good you're not ready yet either. So needless to say, we were running late. but then we just kinda looked at each other and we were like I bet you we're still gonna be the first ones there. You know how asian people run on their own time where it's always later than what they supposedly say theyre gonna show up? Temple time is like that, but only ten times worse. But yeah saturday night was hella fun. The drive back was good. I brought homework cuz I was like oh yeah, an hour to kill I might as well do my homework. But likee I didn't put as much thought into it as I should have because it was pretty dark in the car. so I couldn't do anything at all. Hhaahahah. Funny...Kim was hella laughing at me. When we got there, we were all just hanging out and eating and stuff. We were watching 13 going on 30 the whole time, and we all noticed that Jennifer Garner has pretty short legs relative to the rest of her body. and then Tho said the FUNNIEST thing I swear. he was all like "you know, they say that if you can touch your toes, then that means your body is longer than your legs." and then we all just started cracking up. I started crying...cuz I was laughing so hard. yeah.. it might not seem funny now but you just had to be there. We havn't laughed like that for the longest time and it just felt good. Then Calvin and Eric came back with all the alcohol and coincidentally, that's when everyone else started showing up. =P. Anyway, everyone was just there eating and having fun. Then I left with Trinh and Garey to get little Tuan. When we came back everyone was making Sandy drink so much like all within the hour. So she was knocked out wayy ahead of time. Poor girl. Then we started playing cards. Trinh and I started the speed championships. It was pretty funny. Freakin Steve-o is fuckin hilarious. He hella takes the game seriously because he always loses. We laughed so much....AND we had smores! it was yummy. Then it was getting close to twelve and we kept saying okayy we're gonna leave, we have to leave. Then Bam! It's one and we're like okay we definitely have to go, even though we were having so much fun. So Kim was driving, and we had made it all the way to Landess when Dai suddenly realizes that he had forgotten all about Tinh. hahaa. so we had to turn around and go get him. Then we were on our way back to Davis. It was raining and hella foggy and stuff. but luckily we all made it back in one piece. It was about three when I came home and I was hella tired. by the time I got into bed it was probably about 330. then...Thuy came home and we were just talking and stuff, catching up just like old times. Cuz the past two weeks, we didn't really have a chance to do that since she was hella sick and stuff. So we fell asleep at four...

I woke up at like 8 this morning to get reaady and all that for traffic school. I thought I was running late but then...you can always count on other people coming later than you. At first, the atmosphere was pretty tense and stuff because it's traffic school...not the greatest place to be at. But thankfully, I chose the fun and cheap comedy traffic school. hahaha. So the whole ordeal wasn't that bad at all. I made new friends. It was hella funny. Everyone was making jokes all the time. And even though traffic law is something you should take seriously, there's no reaason why you can't make learning about it more fun. Anyway, I was sitting next to this guy named Todd and he was just hella funny. We were all introducing ourselves and what did we do to end up at traffic school. Hella people were there for speeding and failure to make a complete stop at a stop sign. then Todd and his buddy Lyle, who wants to be a police officer by the way, got pulled over because they were racing on their motorcycles in a 25 mph zone. -__-. That really made me feel better about why I was there...I gotta say. It was a pretty long day, and we didn't have that many breaks. My butt went numb from sitting for so long and my mind just kinda blanked out from time to time because we were talking about the same boring subject for eight hours straight. The whole time, the guy kept saying how you have to pass the test with at least 80% or else you don't get to pass. soo everyone was like wtFF. but then our final exam turned out to be jeopardy. hahah. funny shit. so yeah that was all there was to it. Good experience I think. Which was totally ironic. Afterwards, I came home and ate because I didn't really eat anything the whole day. Now I'm just typing all this out and waiting for my food to digest because I am going to go workout pretty soon. After that, more studying until two...Yayyy!! Then class at 8, more studying, more classes and then I should be home free. For at least the rest of the week? Okayyy later.

Worst luck in the world!

2007-01-27T02:28:57Z

Okayy so I was only at Viv's for like an hour and then I began to realize that I'm not gonna get any studying done there...too many distractions. So I come home and was gonna start studying. That's when I start freaking out because I couldn't find the calculator. Not my calculator...the calculator...that I borrowed from Kim. So I'm looking everywhere, through everything, asking everyone back and forth many many times. Still no calculator. Where could you have gone? See this is one of those rare instances where it's a good idea to start thinking..."If I were a ti 84 graphing calculator....where would I be?" But of course that wasn't helping any. So then I went to lie down for a bit because I was freaking out so much and stressed. It wouldn't have done me much good to study anyway. That's when I fell asleep....with two midterms ahead of me and not that much studying in my head. I finally woke up at like six this morning and I figured I should try to get as much into my head as I could. Ashley was telling me maybe I'm just really stressed and if I took a little break then I could find it, or it would just show up. Now wouldn't that be nice? But no....because it's just my luck...the worst luck in the world. I really do believe that all the bad things that happen to me is karma. cuz you know payback is a bitch. and I would totally understand and just accept that this is what's meant to happen. But I havn't done anything wrong lately. Not that I can think of anyway. I've been so good...if anything, I deserve to be rewarded after all the crap I've been through these past two weeks. This is what I get after being through so much shit...a lost calculator. and it's not even mine!! see this is why you don't borrow stuff. -____-. you know...just in case you're incredibly unlucky and you lose it out of nowhere. This totally suckss you have no idea. gawwddd. If it's any consolation to me, I had a dream that I got pulled over again....for running a red light. I was likee oh mann...not again. but luckily I woke up and I realized it was just a dream. I gotta say the relief is just an awesome feeling. Anyway, I don't think I'm gonna be seeing that calculator ever again for as long as I live. Sooo, now I gotta buy another one...for Kim. At times like these, I really wish I was a millionaire. So then buying another calculator wouldn't seem like such a big deal. I guess it really isn't...but I'm always gonna be kicking myself for losing it because I could have prevented it in a way. If I wasn't so freakin absent minded. I really feel like I'm gonna lose my mind really soon if I don't get a grip. I need a break.

Short day, Looongg night...

2007-01-26T04:34:21Z

I stayed up until four this morning. -__-. making flash cards so I can study more effectively. I'm really nervous about this because I don't really know what to expect for this midterm. But yeah, I like the material so it shouldn't be too horrible. Anyway, when I woke up I only had time to get ready to go to my english class. I had a really interesting dream by the way. Which I do remember extremely vividly. But I don't know if I should talk about it cuz yeahh....hahahah don't worry it's not anything dirty or anything like that. but yeah, if you REALLY wanna know...ask me about it. Anyway, english was okayy. I had to write an in class essay which I wasn't too crazy about in the beginning but then it turned out to be not bad at all. Well at first, when I was reading the prompt, it took me a while to get what he was talking about. But I'm slow...Duuuhhhh. So I eventually got it and after that I just started flowing. I do that a lot with essays. But when I get stuck, I get really stuck. So I finished semi early, with ten minutes to spare. After class I went to safeway because I was running out of food. I spent like sixty bucks. =X. But it's so easy to spend money at safeway I swear. And I hella had to hold back from buying a lot of stuff like ice cream and stuff. hahaha. Then I got home and baked cookies! Cuz I felt like it. I don't know. I think cookies taste a lot better after you worked hard to make them. Then I fell asleep for a while. I think it was likee two hours. Where does the time go? Then I woke up and I ate cuz then I got like five missed calls from Viv. I'm sooo sorry...but yeahh. Now I'm gonna go study with her because we have two midterms tomorrow. Happy birthday Sandy and Trinh! I lovee you both!

Blaahhh

2007-01-25T06:13:32Z

Such a bad day! I barely got any sleep last night. Had to wake up to go to my 8 oclock stats class which turned out to be a total waste of time because it was all just review. When I got home, I was trying to finish up my math homework and maybe study a little bit but I was so sleepy the whole time, I didn't really get anywhere. I ended up taking a little nap for like half an hour which wasn't a really good idea because when I woke up, I didn't wanna go to class. But I knew I couldn't miss class so I had to drag myself to school. After two lectures, I was struggling to finish up homework and that's when I realized I'm fucked because I didn't know what I was doing at all. So now I feel like I'm just making up excuses for my failure because I didn't really take the time to study. My bad, I spent too much time on stats last night. and what can I say? I like my bed. =P. Well needless to say, I was fucked from the get go. and I'm really kickin myself because I knew I should have gotten help when I had the chance. Let this be a lesson learned. I swear I will never do this again because this is not an experience that I want to be repeated. You know what else is a horrible feeling? Getting your foot run over by a fuckin door! I was walking into the lecture hall to take my math midterm and this girl comes rushing out the door, and I, standing right in front of it, felt the impact. =X. or should I say my foot!? Worsefuckinpainieverfeltinmylifeiswearithellafuckinhurt. I wanted to cry because it hurt so much. it still hurts and its probably gonna hurt even more tomorrow. -_-. I'm crippled. I know right? I'm a total cry baby?! Yeahh yeahh. Okayy study timee because I'll be damned if I get bad grades this quarter. It shall not be done. 4.0 or bust.

Kids gone = sad becky.

2007-01-23T04:49:27Z

So I couldn't sleep until likee 5 am on saturday cuz i was up writing that massive entry down there. then after that i started reading all my old entries. I woke up at 11 cuz i was gonna take viv to see apartments that day. We had breakfast with tuyen and vu first. then we went. didnt look at that many places. but im totally being biased because i think saratoga west kicks all the other place's ass. anyway, we finished at like four and i was pretty tired so then i took a nap cuz i thought the kids were gonna be here by like 6. then i woke up and we went to eat cuz we're fatty fat fatties. when we got back, i tried to get some homework done but we were all just excited about them coming. then i asked viet if he could take us to buy some drinks. it took us forever to decide but we did. how were we supposed to know skyy melon tastes bad? -_-. anyways, by the time we finished the kids had arrived already. i was soo happy to see them cuz i was looking forward to them coming all day. anyway, after that i took them to wendys to get some food cuz apparently they were starving. sorry i took you to wendys when i promised in n out. hahha. then after that, we all went back to my place and did random stuff. drank and stuff. played with "regular sized" cards. hahah. it was a loong night. but then everyone got tired out and we all fell asleep. mav and bui woke us up hella early. then we hella lagged and were pretty late to fujis. that means we didnt get to eat until later. we finished at around 330 or something. We all had freakin food coma cuz we ate so much. but seriously you cant eat at fujis and not eat a lot. it's illegal. anyway we went back to my place and steph gave me the greatest massage ever! it was soo relaxing i fell asleep right after. hahaha. i dont know what everyone else was doing. just chilling i guess. then i woke up and we all went to eatt. this is why im fat, this is why im fat. im fat cuz i eat. and then i go to sleep. hahah. i lovee them!!! then they had to leave...=(. i was really sad. when they left i just went home and tried to do homework. but then i ended up sleeping until 11 this morning. it was great. then off to school and thats pretty much it. lots of midterms this week so nothing fun to talk about. booo.

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2007-01-20T07:19:22Z

So it's been a rough week really. I got really sick and I felt like my body was totally crapping out. I didn't want to do anything at all. and other things were happening and it was just really overwhelming. Uhh besides that just school. I'm totally kicking ass right now. Staying on top of my work and stuff. But I have midterms coming up so we shall see how I do. Well other than that, I've been hanging out with Viv and Xtine a lot. I love them so cuz they've totally been putting up with my emo shit. Listening to me vent, watching me cryy, feeding me. It's all really sad but it helps I guess. I'm better now I think. I'm still sad sometimes because I think about him a lot. I miss him and it's really hard because there's nothing I can do about it. You know when you really want something but you can't change anything so you just feel totally helpless? yeahhh that's me. I don't want to be this way anymore. I just wanna be like Fuck becky get a grip. get over it. move on. but it's so hard. I can't seem to let go. Does that sound so crazy? What's wrong with me? I mean he was my first boyfriend, my first kiss. How do you get over that? You really can't. At least I can't and I never really will. I can only get over the heartache. Everyone keeps telling me it gets better, give it time and that's all fine and dandy but it's so hard to believe when you're this hurt. But I love everybody for trying to make me feel better and trying to bring me back to my old self again. I know you hate sad Becky. Believe me, I hate sad becky a million times more. It sucks. I'm trying to snap out of it, I really am. So anyway, this thing i'm going through has really put things into perspective for me, especially about all the people in my life. Here's what i've been thinking...

Mommy: I love you so much, more than you'll ever know. I never really tell you that I appreciate all the things you do for me but I truly am thankful for everything you've given me. You're the best mom in the whole wide world. You've taught me so much and I'll always be indebted to you.

Big brother: You're the best! You spoil me rotten and you turned me into a brat and I love you for that. Seriously though, all you do is give and give to me and I really appreciate it. I love playing games with you, you big five year old. I love eating with you too cuz we hella pig out right? I also love how we can always hang out, go to the movies and do all the fun stuff, fool around and laugh our asses off. But no matter what, I'm always your little sister and you take such good care of me. I love you.

Mookie: I hate that you're always so far away from me. I miss you more and more everyday. But I know you're out there doing what you love and enjoying your life so I'm happy for you. I just know you're gonna do something great someday, like cure cancer or win a nobel peace prize. Just don't forget your little sister when you're out there saving the world okay? I love it when you come home and you give me those BIG hugs. I really look forward to those. And I love your sarcasm, and how you always make me laugh. I love you, you slutty whore.

Vivian: There's about a million things I can say to you, but do you know how much I love you? I'm so glad that you were the first friend I made in high school and that we are still such good friends. I never want to take a break from you because we will never run out of things to talk about. I love shopping with you but you've turned me into an addict. -_-. You're the bestest friend I've ever had and always will be. You can wear whatever color you want in my wedding. I love you!

Tuyen: What can i say? You really are my best friend. I know that I can come to you about anything and everything. I'm really glad that you're a part of my life. I know i'm mean to you sometimes and I make fun of you occasionally but seriously it's all out of love. I just want to thank you for being such a good friend to me and i hope you know I will always be here for you. BFF.

Master Maverick: You're the best master ever! I seriously don't remember you ever being my slave. This has been going on for far too long. I need to reclaim my freedom. But I'm really glad we've gotten closer over the past month or so. It's always fun hanging out with you and we have the best talks. And oh yeah, I know you love me and think I'm the hottest, it's okay to admit it now. =P. GFG.

Kimmie Kim Kimmie: I love hanging out with you, it's the best! I love our movie nights because it either has to be hella scary or hella cutee. Most of the time, I wish you would only say it has to be hella cutee. But we still have to build that tent and it's gonna be so much better than theirs. I'm really hoping that you will get into Davis and go here so we can all hang out all the time. I lovee you Kimmie and your Abercrombie-ness.

Xtine: You give the best massages and you're the biggest dork I've ever known. Thanks for always being there for me, you make my day brighter when we talk about random things and laugh till we're about to diee. You're about the only person I can attempt some pretty embarrassing gangster talk with but it's so much fun. You're also the best study buddy ever. And you're a nerd but i love that you think biotechnology sounds interesting. =_=. I love you biatch!

Jeremy: My adorable son. I love hanging out with you because we always have a good time. I hope there's going to be a lot more of that. Your room is the coolest! You are also the sweetest person I've ever known. Thanks for being there for me, I really appreciate it. I hope you know I'll always be here for you. You can tell yo mama anything. =P. I love you kiddo!

Calvin: Calvin Oi, you're the greatest. It's never a dull moment with you. You can always make me laugh no matter what and I'm really glad about that. I love our talks and how you pour your heart out, its awesome. Anyway, what you're going through right now is tough but you're gonna be just fine. We will get through it together okayy? I promise. By the way, you owe me another date cuz you're so hot and cut and the definition of tall, dark and handsome. Lovee you baby boo.

Steven: I hope you know, we are always gonna be friends. You're a great person and I'm always gonna care about you. But we also have history, that doesn't change. We had some really fun times together and I'll never forget them. I hope you won't either. I'm really gonna miss it, but surely we will have more memories to look forward to because I really like hanging out with you. I'm always gonna be in love with your car. =P.

Kim: I have known you for so long and you're not just a friend anymore, you're like my sister. Well now you're also my roommate. But I love you to death! We've been through so much together. We have seen some bad times but there are so many good memories, and I hope there will be many many more to come. There have been so many laughs too, I lost count. Cheeks cramps remember? But thanks for always being there for me, I know I can always count on you. We'll be friends forever...I just know it. GDPT for life!

Jaq: I miss you soo!! I had the best summer with you and it always makes me sad when I think about how far away you are. I know we barely get to see each other, but when we do it feels just like old times. I love how we can just hang out and talk for hours and eat like the fat bitches we are. I love you a lot and I hope we get to have many more awesome summers together. We'll make it even better this time around.

Tracy Lynn: I Love you trix! You're the greatest and UCLA is so lucky. I really miss hanging out with you and pretending to work out while watching mtv all day. You're a really good person and an even better friend. I'm really glad that we've become such good friends, all of us. I know I can always talk to you about anything and it's so easy because you understand. It's like we have ESPN or something. =).

Keith: Thank you for being such a good friend to me. You are always there to listen to me and I'm really lucky to have you as a friend. I just wish you weren't so far away so we can hang out more because I love hanging out with you. I love our long talks every now and then, catching up or just talking about random things like our childhood. I really miss those. I just wish nothing but the best for you because if anyone deserves it, you do. We still have to go to Great America with Anny and Steph.

Baby Trinh: You are the love of my life, my other half. I love your goofiness and how we laugh so much. I love it when you sing and how we're sleeping buddies every time we go camping. I love talking to you even if it's been a while cuz we can pick up right from where we left off. I think we don't hang out nearly as often as we should because we have the best time when we do. GDPT may have introduced us, but we will be friends forever. I honestly can't imagine not being friends with you because you make my days brighter with all the sunshine you bring into my life. I love you babyxtrinh.

Chicken: We've been through a lot don't you think? Being officer with you was the best! I really enjoyed all the good times we had. I'm really going to miss that. But now we are here and I'm really glad that we're friends. I love your hugs! They're the best! So warm and cuddly. I also love spending time with you, we always have so much fun. You're just a big dork and so am I so it fits right? I know what you're going through right now and it's never easy. But I am always here for you no matter what. I love chicken but I love Victor more!!